Hoping for better

yawnnn..another sien nite in uni..10pm d..this time no frens wif me..study alone..extra sien..getting hungry..and sleepy also..mayb need drink macchiato again d..tat coffee..scared drink d can't sleep but can't do anythg as well..aihzz..suddenly no inspiration pulak..feel like pushing all d computers off d table and lie on the table and sleep..die la..tonight must finish physics ler..onot take up too much time d..i tink i've wasted enuf time surfing bout d gua..but still no mood..cham d la..aihhh..i wanna sigh a million times..someone lift me up..probably i need another 1hour walk by the river again..calm my soul..hmm..i wish i could return home to my bed for just a night..and c my family for just a few mins also enuf d..but i dunno what will happen when i return back here..will i feel d same? better? or worse?..haihzzz..life must always be so complicated..actually humans are complicated..not life..i condemn humans..including myself for eternity for being so complex..now i reli wish we were all still living on trees and dressed in hide..hunt for food everyday..easier..no difficult ppl to deal with..just difficult animals..much easier den now..yeahla..complain complain..i noe i complain alot..but no other avenue since i'm here..wat2 do..2 more month..i can't seem to find anythg now to power me thru the nite also d..aihh..can wan can wan..i can do it sentence have become so repetitive now..can do it how long? can do it how well? ok..gotta stop doubting d..or else waste my time typing..suppose to spur me up..actually now i'm feeling abit fired up d..cos i feel abit waste of time typinf away here..haha..ok..think i'm just gonna "crawl" to the vending machine n get myself a packet of chips and cont study d..mayb need to wash face also before i start new chapter of mind boggling phasor optics..blink blink..hail the genius of all the pioneers in physics..discover so many thgs..smtm when my mind i clear and i sit back to see what they have achieved..i'm astounded..altho abit understated..like discovering of gravity waves..wth is dat also man..swt..of all thgs discover gravity waves..mayb one day they can find invisible waves also..or better black hole waves or even better alien waves..or in short physics defying waves..wateva it is..got mood d now..haha..mayb d chapter now boring tats y i stopped..okie..get over d boring part quick..gonna tackle harder wan d..d harder ones excite me more actually..others i've read bfr d..just forget d..altho i agree my concept on d ones i've read not good enuf still..i'm still lazy to look deeper cos like abit sien d..smtms its d book fault also..explanation so brief..end up info not reached to readers..i continue to discover so many physics that's not described carefully in form 5 and college to a lesser degree due to the inadequacy of info..dats y students like me just assume..den assumption wrong..ok liao lah..real waste of time..burn 2 hours d..time to study..chips 1st..hehe..mood back..study!