it does makes sense to me..is it the same for u?

1) Through ignorance are conditioned volitional actions of Kamma formation

2) Through volitional actions actions are conditioned consciousness

3) Through consciousness are conditioned mental and physical phenomena

4) Through mental and physical phenomena are conditioned the six faculties, ie. five physical sense - organs and mind

5) Through the six faculties are conditioned sensorial and mental contact

6) Through sensorial and mental contact is conditioned sensation

7) Through sensation is conditioned desire

8) Through desire is conditioned clinging

9) Through clinging is conditioned the process of becoming

10) Through the process of becoming is conditioned birth

11) Through birth are conditioned decay, death, sorrow, lamentation, pain, grief and despair.



what wise words..it has to be an understatement...some serious stuff to think of.

I have answers but i crave for more

The year is ending soon..and i really can't believe that i've been to and back of australia within this short space of a year. This entry, hopefully, will sum up my entire year to the extent where i can remember. sorry if what i say does not make sense cause right now..inspiration is probably at a zero, emotion is at a negative and brain activity is at the rate of a 2year old.

before summing up the year, i think i'll just leave a comment on smtg i read earlier.. going thru my friend's blog titled reckoner...(so i guess since ur d reckoner..i can be d 'answer-er') i eyes skimmed thru the words..what-----is---happiness---need---what?? to be happy??---sorry but thats what is printed in my mind when i read thru d paragraphs..my brain cells knows no grammar sadly@.@. Probably a year ago, i would be beset by the same annoying question..as so many people do...old young..i can recall so many times when people ask themselves this ques...an example of a comment from my fren: life is like a sine wave..and i wish i could full rectify it..or better make it into a y=e^x^9999999 graph.
So, happiness as i have learned from this one year of (what should i call it??? crap + perfume?) is just this 3 words:













I love you.

No no no, i was just kidding:P


it's actually 2words:
No attachments.


how u interpret it can be entirely up to u..as for me, i spent many long quiet days thinking about it..in my room..in my virtual space..by the river..lying on the big open field..in front of d tv..and in d bathroom=) it makes quiet a peaceful place:)

I guess since i have understood happiness.."application of happiness is another question altogether (doesn't mean that i'm always grinning all d time 24/7) ..and thank God cause that means i'm still human and normal at that" But since i have understood it, i feel i the need to let those close to me know of it..so u know..u dun hav2 spend so much time in d toilet tinking about it..in d bathroom (which would be extremely time-saving for girls)..haha..fine fine, so not everyone does that, but to those who do..hip hip hurray! And to my fren diki, i hope this answer will ensure that u will not hav2 face the same question again when ur 50.
And also, i must give thanks to the many rooms i lived in, the fresh air by the river,the green grass, the tv box and the toilet walls for "inspiring" me to understand this complex answers. However the greatest credit goes to my dad, Buddha and Dhamma (Buddha's teachings), for explaining to me wherever and whenever i fell short of understanding. As for the interpretations, i shall leave u to it and try my best not to pollute ur understanding with mine=) hehe..


So, am i happy..

Yes!
ok, i'm not going to continue with 2007 summary anymore..i'm too lazy to edit above..so be it..so bring it on 2008...bring me to life...yet again...

Strange..i feel myself compelled to write here at this hour at this day..it's 1.06am on boxing day..i feel i have plenty of questions in my mind..questions to which i am grateful i have answers to..but i believe my mind is too constricted to see the broader view of things..i guess the answers to my questions aren't clear enough in my head even with the answers i already have. So here i am awake at 1am in the morning..passing time away and pondering over these answers and over how i should have it clear in my head..i guess the child-like emotions and worldly distractions are still a part of everyday life..and it won't go away..Maybe those emotions and narrow-mindedness will wither away each season..but distractions? nahh..i doubt so without a conscious effort..The more i think about these answers..the more sense i see of it..and the more disjointed thoughts i discover..but i guess i'm still green in heart..white in soul. I need to have faith...but it comes from experience..because experience gives proof of what lies ahead. wait a min, but that won't be faith anymore..call it believing then.

Thank goodness i'll be able to wake up late 2morrow. I think the lifestyle of aussie kids..studying at frenetic pace in the shortest period and holidaying to the max over the long hols is kinda tiring and draining..even the hols are sapping me up..haha...but not the slightest complain..it's worth it..i mean the hols Only..other than that is just..like epl managers say..grinding out results..at least thats what i say for my 1st year..

change of topic..(how i wish i am able to type in a semi-conscious state, that'd be so cool and i don't have to bother to disentangle my messed up thoughts..)


oh crap, what did i want to say?

oh..now it comes back..swt..old d..well, now that it's back..i'm lazy..sucks..hmm...okay..let's see all that grumbling up there isn't about a bad day..instead i think i had the best christmas for..err..yeah..i think the best christmas in this lifetime..there were others better but it was on eves..so it doesn't count..my family don't really celebrate christmas..the cheery family mood is there but nothing decorative to show that we are celebrating. So, the lack of doesn't really matter to me at least. The day was excellent because i met up with some supportive friends whom i've been keen to meet up with...the best seating position in the cinema combined with chipmunks well worth watching..the swashbuckling aluminium foil thingy...the dizzying lights of old town...the listen to wyun's 'interesting bigtales' and watching my fren roll her eyes, hilarious...the pleasant rain..the nice drivers i meet..the visit to my best fren's room..hadn't been there for the longest time..the unexpected invitation to dinner..my full tummy..the dinner table warmth and laughter..the delicious food..the electric guitar..the drive back..the 30 over messages i had to reply tonite(it all came in a barrage..which is extremely weird..i got sick of replying halfway thru)...the humble meal mum prepared..i feel most comfortable eating at home and eating mum's food....the meal was just rice..egg and green vege and a bowl of soup..hehe..so simple..what's better den this..those ppl who are rich and old now must b craving for such a meal..a meal cooked by mum of rice, egg and vege..hehe, can eat til cry..ahhh..life..but of cos i still do enjoy other food ler..good food..expensive food..whatever..but in terms of comfort,home and hearth..nothing beats it..i'm glad i came home to eat today..soo glad...hmm..okay..that's the reasons why today is so enjoyable and memorable(for the rice).

woohoo..and i wonder why do i have so little to write..i think its just me too lazy to relay output from my brain to fingers..

what else should i say..i wanna sleep...and i think the hype and happiness balloon in me have expanded too big a size and a screw just busted...

thank you for such a nice day everyone..zzz..


Jing Han slept at 2.25am today.