Rain

I love rain...why? supposedly because it gives me peace & calm. Yes, it is an extrinsic source of calm...but what matters is it gives me a consolation of intrinsic peace i've strived to achieve once so many times. To console myself perhaps..or positively speaking to encourage. Ahhh, so elusive the goal..what we have and what we wish to have. I wonder...when will this heart and mind of mine open to see the world?

I do wonder..why do people strive to be on top of the other..on what purpose? To satisfy our own ambitions..desires..wants? To make the world a better place once we are on top? (is it necessary to be on the top to do so?) To prove to ourselves that we are capable where others have faltered? To do ourselves and our kin a favour? To realise our potential and talents? To be remembered?

To be someone?

Is it true?

Or is it the damning thought that we are just plain selfish?
Just like how would a creeper plant fight to be above the tree. So, are all of us selfish?



Yes.



..because in this world...the weakest dies..earliest..and the stronger dies too..later..

But why be selfish...when in the end we shall all die the same death. We won't be remembered forever thereafter..and will we still remember the satisfaction, success, ambition, talents and potential once we are dead?

I don't know why...perhaps we are still too small-minded to see the truth of it or we are simply too selfish to believe in unselfish thought. Even if we do, we are too cowardly to carry out the thought. We are still too 'animalistic' or maybe 'plantilistic' despite our 'civilisation'. Okay, so our civilisation is flawed..but I don't know..what do I know? I just know I am selfish, you are selfish and we all are.

Nice rain..time for bed..animal..

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I love my bed..I think I've fell deeply in love with it..oh, i can already feel d melancholy of caressing rough pillows and sunk beds all the while longing its touch and security..so perfectly shaped to my contour..so accomodating..so understanding..so so dreamyyy...mmmph..

enough of my affair with the bed...today was freshly different then any other day..Yes, the rot has set in..but it won't stay for long..maybe because I felt so positively in sync when I ran for about a mile or so..not much..but adequate jolt to bring mannequin me to life..i ought push myself to do more of this exercizing thg..its long overdue..my fitness is probably languishing near the fitness of a penguin..at least they swim and attempt to fly..i don't..

okayyy...i'll get back to my cradle of life then...