Sunday, December 30, 2007

it does makes sense to me..is it the same for u?

1) Through ignorance are conditioned volitional actions of Kamma formation

2) Through volitional actions actions are conditioned consciousness

3) Through consciousness are conditioned mental and physical phenomena

4) Through mental and physical phenomena are conditioned the six faculties, ie. five physical sense - organs and mind

5) Through the six faculties are conditioned sensorial and mental contact

6) Through sensorial and mental contact is conditioned sensation

7) Through sensation is conditioned desire

8) Through desire is conditioned clinging

9) Through clinging is conditioned the process of becoming

10) Through the process of becoming is conditioned birth

11) Through birth are conditioned decay, death, sorrow, lamentation, pain, grief and despair.



what wise words..it has to be an understatement...some serious stuff to think of.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

I have answers but i crave for more

The year is ending soon..and i really can't believe that i've been to and back of australia within this short space of a year. This entry, hopefully, will sum up my entire year to the extent where i can remember. sorry if what i say does not make sense cause right now..inspiration is probably at a zero, emotion is at a negative and brain activity is at the rate of a 2year old.

before summing up the year, i think i'll just leave a comment on smtg i read earlier.. going thru my friend's blog titled reckoner...(so i guess since ur d reckoner..i can be d 'answer-er') i eyes skimmed thru the words..what-----is---happiness---need---what?? to be happy??---sorry but thats what is printed in my mind when i read thru d paragraphs..my brain cells knows no grammar sadly@.@. Probably a year ago, i would be beset by the same annoying question..as so many people do...old young..i can recall so many times when people ask themselves this ques...an example of a comment from my fren: life is like a sine wave..and i wish i could full rectify it..or better make it into a y=e^x^9999999 graph.
So, happiness as i have learned from this one year of (what should i call it??? crap + perfume?) is just this 3 words:













I love you.

No no no, i was just kidding:P


it's actually 2words:
No attachments.


how u interpret it can be entirely up to u..as for me, i spent many long quiet days thinking about it..in my room..in my virtual space..by the river..lying on the big open field..in front of d tv..and in d bathroom=) it makes quiet a peaceful place:)

I guess since i have understood happiness.."application of happiness is another question altogether (doesn't mean that i'm always grinning all d time 24/7) ..and thank God cause that means i'm still human and normal at that" But since i have understood it, i feel i the need to let those close to me know of it..so u know..u dun hav2 spend so much time in d toilet tinking about it..in d bathroom (which would be extremely time-saving for girls)..haha..fine fine, so not everyone does that, but to those who do..hip hip hurray! And to my fren diki, i hope this answer will ensure that u will not hav2 face the same question again when ur 50.
And also, i must give thanks to the many rooms i lived in, the fresh air by the river,the green grass, the tv box and the toilet walls for "inspiring" me to understand this complex answers. However the greatest credit goes to my dad, Buddha and Dhamma (Buddha's teachings), for explaining to me wherever and whenever i fell short of understanding. As for the interpretations, i shall leave u to it and try my best not to pollute ur understanding with mine=) hehe..


So, am i happy..

Yes!
ok, i'm not going to continue with 2007 summary anymore..i'm too lazy to edit above..so be it..so bring it on 2008...bring me to life...yet again...

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Strange..i feel myself compelled to write here at this hour at this day..it's 1.06am on boxing day..i feel i have plenty of questions in my mind..questions to which i am grateful i have answers to..but i believe my mind is too constricted to see the broader view of things..i guess the answers to my questions aren't clear enough in my head even with the answers i already have. So here i am awake at 1am in the morning..passing time away and pondering over these answers and over how i should have it clear in my head..i guess the child-like emotions and worldly distractions are still a part of everyday life..and it won't go away..Maybe those emotions and narrow-mindedness will wither away each season..but distractions? nahh..i doubt so without a conscious effort..The more i think about these answers..the more sense i see of it..and the more disjointed thoughts i discover..but i guess i'm still green in heart..white in soul. I need to have faith...but it comes from experience..because experience gives proof of what lies ahead. wait a min, but that won't be faith anymore..call it believing then.

Thank goodness i'll be able to wake up late 2morrow. I think the lifestyle of aussie kids..studying at frenetic pace in the shortest period and holidaying to the max over the long hols is kinda tiring and draining..even the hols are sapping me up..haha...but not the slightest complain..it's worth it..i mean the hols Only..other than that is just..like epl managers say..grinding out results..at least thats what i say for my 1st year..

change of topic..(how i wish i am able to type in a semi-conscious state, that'd be so cool and i don't have to bother to disentangle my messed up thoughts..)


oh crap, what did i want to say?

oh..now it comes back..swt..old d..well, now that it's back..i'm lazy..sucks..hmm...okay..let's see all that grumbling up there isn't about a bad day..instead i think i had the best christmas for..err..yeah..i think the best christmas in this lifetime..there were others better but it was on eves..so it doesn't count..my family don't really celebrate christmas..the cheery family mood is there but nothing decorative to show that we are celebrating. So, the lack of doesn't really matter to me at least. The day was excellent because i met up with some supportive friends whom i've been keen to meet up with...the best seating position in the cinema combined with chipmunks well worth watching..the swashbuckling aluminium foil thingy...the dizzying lights of old town...the listen to wyun's 'interesting bigtales' and watching my fren roll her eyes, hilarious...the pleasant rain..the nice drivers i meet..the visit to my best fren's room..hadn't been there for the longest time..the unexpected invitation to dinner..my full tummy..the dinner table warmth and laughter..the delicious food..the electric guitar..the drive back..the 30 over messages i had to reply tonite(it all came in a barrage..which is extremely weird..i got sick of replying halfway thru)...the humble meal mum prepared..i feel most comfortable eating at home and eating mum's food....the meal was just rice..egg and green vege and a bowl of soup..hehe..so simple..what's better den this..those ppl who are rich and old now must b craving for such a meal..a meal cooked by mum of rice, egg and vege..hehe, can eat til cry..ahhh..life..but of cos i still do enjoy other food ler..good food..expensive food..whatever..but in terms of comfort,home and hearth..nothing beats it..i'm glad i came home to eat today..soo glad...hmm..okay..that's the reasons why today is so enjoyable and memorable(for the rice).

woohoo..and i wonder why do i have so little to write..i think its just me too lazy to relay output from my brain to fingers..

what else should i say..i wanna sleep...and i think the hype and happiness balloon in me have expanded too big a size and a screw just busted...

thank you for such a nice day everyone..zzz..


Jing Han slept at 2.25am today.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

In need of a shoulder...an extra arm..an extra leg..an extra heart..an extra brain..and an extra soul..

Yesterday night was a pleasant night..a night MU won 4-0 thrashing wigan united..felt extremely high with the team's win..yea..they are something like my life and soul..my bread and butter..for hard times as well as good times..In times of hardship, it inspires u to fight on..to battle on..to march on..full of passion and verve never to give in..although sometimes u feel so weak like i do now..and in times of joy and gaeity..it bonds u closer to friends and family and to every being out there..the joy of cheering and beaming widely when the team wins..d feeling of togetherness..

Yeah..last night win was fantastic and my mood was d same as well..but this morning it had darkened into a full blown cyclonic clouds waiting to be unleashed..I was literally pumping my fist wif yesterday's win when i stopped all work in uni at nite to chat wif diki and update each other on d score and consoling each other on y we should not b sad altho we both miss watching d goals..The worse part was i told him and myself that i could get to watch the goals in youtube come morning when some good samaritans hav uploaded it..this morning..i did find them...d videos..just couldn't watch them..all removed due to copyrights...I can seriously curse alot right now...There are millions of EPL videos in youtube y must they take of the very ones i wanted to watch..ruined my day...to b denied such simple joy of watching a goal..(my heart is in tears..tskk...at first the thought of not watching wasn't that really impactful on me..but somehow this and some really sucky thgs which happened to me in an interval of 12hours turned a really bright MU win into a rather shitty night plus dawn for me..this plus all d crappy stuff which happened den culminated into me feeling extremely sorry for myself now as i type altho i dun feel so bfr this..i guess..typing this only serve to amplify my "i feel so pathethic" feeling..

oh..some of the shitty stuff included a security guard and my 2hsemates..sort of my death messenger like dat..I'll tell u in short what actually happened..Yesterday morning enjoyed a long cycle down river torrens and watched pelicans..cleared my head up for the week I thought..so that i'm ready for the next..yeah, it really does look like i'm dragging myself to the finish line isn't it? The fact is I am. I studied in computing suite again from afternoon to nite..check d scores of d soccer match and had a nice chat wif diki which actually made me feel better..altho we just crap about soccer..smtm crapping about other stuff rather den d problem itself is smtg i treasure more..cos it makes me happy rather den talk about my problems to other ppl..smtm it works..some reli good frens bring u up wif a joke or two..but most of d time..i find myself deeper in d well of wallow...So yea, i appreciated the lift in spirit from frens who bought me lunch while i studied in d suite and frens from afar who keep my spirits up with non-sensical stuff that keeps that silly smile plastered to my face..But yea, after 12 midnite..i continued studying..(d reason i'm pushing myself so hard is cause of smtg..very hard to explain..i'll juz put it as intuition)..on and on until around 4am in d morning..den i couldn't stand anymore just doze off on my book..d other only guy in d suite wif me was already on d floor..head on his bag..den when i woke up he was gone..den i closed my eyes n tried to get enuf rest sumore..den came d unexpected part..a security guard came into d suite and said this to me: "hello der..you can't sleep here..y don't u pack ur bag and leave...go back home. The tone was threatening..and while i woke up startlingly..i got my specs on and didn't reply anythg..too blur to say anythg altho i wanted to..but nth came out of my mouth..and dat bloody S.O.B guard just walk off..he didn't hav2 do dat..i dun noe y he said that to me..cos ever since d suite was started..my super super seniors hav been sleeping and studying there ever since bfr dat guard even started working here..and i hav seen so many ang mor and asians alike sleep on d computer tables, chairs lined up..floor and etc since i came here..i never did any of those so far..my only sleeping position so far was to slump n d chair and sleep on d table..arms folded as pillow..uncomfortable as it might b..i was too tired to be bothered by d uncomfortable feeling..just dozed off..And there is a sign in d suite which says no food and drink..no bicycles..no this n that but no sleeping? People sleep in the library and almost anywhere..in d bus..etc etc..all i did was sleep on my book..what sin did i make to compel him to come forward with such threatening tone??!!!... This really pisses me off..I don't even recognise da bloody guard cos juz woke up..i juz rmbr he's fat and white...a globular of fat and human excreta wif the face of a pig i imagine..Pardon me..but FU** u..Yeah rite..go "home"..in case he didn't noe not everyone is so lucky to have a home to go back to everyday..I think i could live wif dat threat in his voice..but what hurt me most was d way he said "go home"...i get a feeling dat this guy is racist..if u interpret wat he says in different fashion u'll noe what i mean..d way malays ask chinese go back to china..yeah..racists is united regardless of colour and religion...that's d only common thg they share..whites, malays..all from d same shit..they r all da same..juz listen to how they speak to u and u'll find out..Yeah, so if i did sleep in d computing suite what's he gonna do to me..? Suspend me from using the computers for catching a nap in the suite..that's gotta b d most ridiculous thg i've ever heard of..imagine banning ppl from library just cos they sleep on d table..Oh ya..must rmbr also..not that i'm preventing anyone else from using d comps..den tats reasonable..all d 6computing suites were empty..just 2 ppl..me n one more guy who hav already left..I wanted to write a letter to dat bloody guard but i felt it's a waste of my time..This sort of ppl wun ever understand other ppl..cos they always take their own "home" for granted..thats y they tink they can go about making other people's life worse cos they tink everyone has a home..Until now..i still cannot quell my hatred for him altho shortly after he left i calmed myself down and recite some prayers to ease the hurt..There i was in d middle of nowhere..alone..out of d blue must target me..i dunno y..Sooner or later i'm going to recognise d guard..i know i will know who it is by the very 1st word he speaks to me if i happen to b listening some other time...perhaps i'l giv him a piece of my mind too..over smtg out of d blue as well..let him taste his own medicine..So, as soon as i finished d remaining chapters that i had planned to cover i left d suite..still wif dat pint size of hate in me..i'm not gonna waste my energy on that sob...he'll get his lesson someday..Wait till when d exams are nearer and u'll c an influx of students staying overnite in uni already..and it'll b noisy u can't study also..sleep also so hard..so many ppl..yea..and dat time dat bloody guard dun even care..juz cos i'm alone dun mean he got right to ask me to leave..dat bloody suite is 24/7 and i entered wif a fully authorised access card..and yet wanna make noise...haih..like i said..i'm complaining so much cos he chose d wrong words wif me..if he didn't evoke d word home..i probably would juz cast him off as another weirdo in this city of weirdoes..But he juz had to day that. Now i know what it means, when i read the book on US military strategic planning..when they state a general rule of ground battle is to never block the enemy's march back home at all cost...U gotta b dumb to stand in d way of an army returning home from a protracted war..same thg here man..now i noe d anguish of being far away from home..probably i can imagine d situation in war too..probably 10times worse den i am..homesickness plus seeing people die everyday..d lethargy..whatever it is..never stop a returning army. SOOO, i left d suite having completed my work and cycled to mcd for breakfast..took takeaway..another cold morning..i was cycling so slowly..d wind was blowing cold and hard..i tink if i were to cycle any faster..i would turn into a block of ice sliding down the road..frozen..i was wearing only 1 sweater and a long pants..which explains everythg..smtg like in penang..haih..i cycled on and on cursing d wind, gritting my teeth and squinting my eyes as gust after gust of wind slalom onto my face..haih...i can curse d wind all day long i tell u..frusfrating..since i come here i hav begin to swear and curse alot..actually..i tink i started to curse and swear here..in penang..nth tat bad 2 piss me off until can swear juz like dat..d worse it ever gets when smtg sucky happens was just..shit la..tats all...come here.."berjenis-jenis" d..yea..so i swear alot la..onot if bottled inside..i tink it's even worse..tats how y depressed ppl must b given chance to swear and curse all they wan..take dat frusfration out..hahaha..now i rmbr smtg funny..i dunno where i watched it la..i tink was it journey to d west ar..some 2fella go up d mountain and den scream all d maki maki stuff lah..and den d tv screen show their mouth move so fast..den all d symbols come out big big over d mountain like musical notes lidat..hahahahha..tats so funny in..Lalalallalalalala...

oh, and den reach home lor...den find d youtube thg dun hav dy..haihzzz...so sad..aussie wif their National d.RUG.g.BY League and their beer intoxicated country..water also dun hav d 12 dream of drinking beer sumore..morons la..wait till d drought dry up australia d den only stop drinking beer i tink..evryday meet drunkards..oh ya.din cerita tat aborigine teens sumore..as usual..on booze..and sumore 2 girls drinking beer in d computing suite at nite lidat..they were obviously drunk..can smell and they were talking dirty sumore wif some guy at d back..haihh..luckily i hav my earphones to block off the unwanted disturbance..thank God they din vomit in d suite la..onot i hav2 move into another one sumore..i rmbr sumore a few weeks ago.cycle to church to get smtg from fren..at nite ler..pass this bunch of middle aged ladies..as usual..see trouble, sense trouble, smell trouble d..i speed up lo as usual..n den they saw me coming they started shouting ask me stop..when i didn't they gav chase..so juz cycle as fast as possible loh..nonit to worry so much..wear high heels run damn slow..unlike d aborigine teens..like yao ming height and probably can run 100metres under 12 or 13 secs..tat wan just pray hard tat they r not targeting u la..gotta act cool and at ease..same like dogs only..when u run they chase even more..haih..i noe very bad compare them to tat but its d truth..d fact is d ang mor government made them lidat..i dun reli blame them..

so what happened after i had my breakfast and all dat was the 2 ekor come knocking on my door..so i opened duly and stood there lo..what is it this time..haih..yea..so they inform me dat i'll hav to move out in 3weeks time..my exam is in 4weeks time..and if i move gotta b fast d..i got no plans as of now yet..thanks alot man..d reason given was that the landlord is taking d hse back cos the toilet is leaking n he wants 2 do renovation..so again..i dun get 2 say anythg other den har har har..and just kena kick here and there..bloody idiots..and i just realised no wonder they ask me 2 pay rent so early this week..wanna tangkap tiao me lah..haih..idiots..hope they return my money la..or else i'm gonna lodge report wif consumer's tribunal d..make them pay for every cents..actually its hundred dollar..tat amount i wun juz don't care..So yea..what a bad time..but i wasn't that surprised lah..cos i wanted to move out after my exams also wan..go back penang..dun hav2 pay money for d remaining months while i'm in penang..expensive lor if pay..so gotta break contract..so i stand to lose..i went to legal counsel too..they advised me halfway on wat2 do..but looks like save me d energy la..nonit also d..they break d contract for me d:D altho i'm still not sure if d timing is right..hopefully everythg will b alrite lah...so there it goes..hav2 find a room for a month plus lidat until exams over den move out..gai also..so far no idea where yet..so i told my parents immediately..but now as i type..i'm too tired to tink of any alternatives also lah..i'm planning to sleep for 5 to 6hours lidat and suddenly wake up wif an ingenious idea of where to move to, how to move, when to move, how to get d remaining $$ if d 2 ekor happens not wanting 2 return my remaining paid rent..and also where am i gonna keep my stuff all when i go back penang..hahahaha..don't worry..sure got "cue" wan..nonit to worry..d worse also sleep tepi jalan only..study in comp suite..live in mcd and hungry jacks meal everyday..and to handle d security guard my smart ass idea is to sneak up d roof like olden china assasin style and blow d "sleeping gas drug" with a pipe into his security room only..or mayb more high tech is use digicam take photo of d comp suite, print out in colour and den use uhu glue stick the picture on the camera only..that way tat guard wun kacau me:D hahahhaha..haiya..wateva it is..i wished that i am able to move out from this hse after my exams..apparently got my wish earlier den later..haiya..deal wif it la..sure can wan...as long as get my money back and find a proper place for d time being and also importantly for the future..and also find hsemates if can..hmm..okie liao lah..go get some sleep d..nescafe is keeping me awake only..senses hav been dulled..cold day still..1.45pm d..goodnite-noon...zzz...

Friday, October 5, 2007

Thgs getting slightly better..

Should be getting better ler..after reading so much last nite..finally able to follow d lectures today..not so blur like d rest of d class d..hehe..physics is cool..my professor work wif world renowned scientist bfr..so exciting listen to him talk about his experiences..working with the 1st man to create a modified mountain top observatory..today showed us his holography skill also..whoa...so cool..better den da normal illusion u c everyday..u can actually c smtg extremely complex wif his hologram..by standing directly in front of d image ler but if u stand behind d hologram..u see nothing there..very hard to explain but extremely cool..for the first time d class not rushing out of d doors after class over..evryone staying back to his holography demonstration..not in syllabus lah but he showed anyway..for or interest..haha..well worth mentioning this one..and yea..designing with comps looks much more fun after the demo today..but no time for fun and explore new stuff d ler..exams around d corner..just a matter of cover all ASAP..bought lots of food to last me 2weeks also d..hmm..ate truffles wif cream topping..so yummy..but other den dat juz tired gua..i tink i'm gonna take a nap now..den wake up to study n chat abit hopefully..miss my chatting pulak d..yawn..hmm..better sleep d ler..altho dun feel sleepy but my brain not 100% anymore..feel abit blur lar..probably gonna twist and turn on d bed..blek..nth soothing to make me sleep..hmm..listen music to sleep den..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......i love sleeping..altho my fren once said dun sleep my life away..but i still like to sleep altho i sleep less n spend d hours pestering frens more n more d..ish..sumore dun12sleep..crap here sumore..miss my footie session today..stephen ask me..but giv excuses..altho real excuses wan..too sleepy to play football ler..later caught napping on the ball..hmmm..one moment c me passing da ball and d next moment lie spread eagle on bag sleep on d grass..i tink i can reli sleep on d grass wan one day..just a matter of wat wakes me up..frens..some birds..rain or mayb robbers ler..tats y dun dare try yet..haha..aiya..tink of sleeping on grass tink of sleeping in pfs field pulak d at nite star gazing..so nice..i'm sure some ppl herenoe wat i mean..those cool starry nites..so lau juak..camping and enjoying d bright moon and stars..i rmbr still..last time become blur rc member..my leader chin chuan ask me go catch frogs wif kim kooi under orders of the committee during nite hunt..so dark..grappling in d dark..sumore nvr catch one wif bare hands bfr..so sked..nonit to say ler golden ghost also sked..ghost oso sked..sad case..so we caught a few ler..i forgot how it feels d..it in my hands..haha..i dun tink i dare touch d now..sumore catch what..dead lizards and cockroach wif hands..haha..all da disgusting stuff..all under orders do wan ler..onot not so sot go touch dat geli animals..i like catch ants the most..easiest..altho at nite damn hard 12find an ant also..all go home to d nest d. Wah..atc moments..sadly this year go back also dun tink get to enjoy atc..dunno how many malays in the unit d. My sleepwalk moment..sumore pee ter's collapsed gadjetry..mission failure..kesian..talent time..hahaha..had a good time laughing dat one..never cease to make me laugh wif the antics of dumb frees like us..from uncle hoi's blue remix of chicken rice to who wanna b a millionaire to some reli dirty jokes and acting and some sesated acting also..haha. OMG..how can i forget..mock war and station games..chemical X..eggs,flour,waterbomb and last nite supper concoction we made ourselves..waterbomb filled wif tadpoles..hahaha..sumore i rmbr one damn geli wan probably some animal dung..altho i dun dare touch or go near also..i din handle tat wan..n how can i forget also..the trip around penang...what's dat event called d? haha, i'm in charge for it and i made it so nice i tink everyone enjoyed the "amazing race" i organised for them..among d best i'd created wif tua liap..but i sumbang all d idea..hehehe..it was so hard..actually not hard la..just tat got one member..no..actually is group leader..race until sesat at teluk bahang..hahahha..blur case..dunno how from travel to esplanade can travel to teluk bahang..end up someone must go fetch him back..haha..and also d race up kek lok si temple..wahh..cun!!!! so tense..6groups all racing to reach the top of the pagoda to get d 3 complete maps to d next destination..d last 3 groups got pieces of jigsaw of the map only..hahaha..i'm so evil...hahaha..mayb tats y tat "cow" can sesat till teluk bahang lah..hahaha..aiyah..but watching them race is different sort of fun den racing around penang island yourself wif ur group members..how cud i ever forget..me and sim yan san and jonathon easaw race against d like of ragu, kim kooi and other leader's group..haha..end up me n lagu work together cooperate til d end..haha..came in 1st and 2nd beat evry1 else..keng lar..da time me n ragu spend at GH eating mentos secretly while our senior find us(kenot eat wan actually)..swallow choco down our throats..we were dat hungry..chocs good cos provide boost in sugar level ler..got energy to race back..try walking penang island on foot wif only maggi mee in ur stomach for 2days..die lorrr..haha..last time was so lasak..i tink now..early early die d..kenot tahan d ler..either getting older..or hardship resistance wore down d..haha..
Hmmm..what else i miss..yah..i kinda miss d bonds made from marching..d spirit..d scorching sun..my own moments of dizziness under d sun..luckily din pengsan bfr lah.good record d..now i wonder who pengsan bfr marching among the 13 of us? diki..u noe? hmmm..i dun tink hav hor..all can tahan last time..or was it tua liap ar..rmbr like carry him off lidat izit..can't rmbr...ohh..the joy..our everyday visit to jln terengganu eat lunch after training for all the inter-sch competition..haiyo..dat time..everyday go there eat until sien..now i won't d..will appreciate hawker food..hehe..Oh ya, until now melvin still owe da chicken rice auntie money la..hahaha..he super too much..ate d den he just walk bek to sch wif us..din pay at all..hahaha..too much lahh..hahahaha..until we ask him later he pay d onot..den only he realise..haha..must make a note bring him go there makan again d when i go back..hahahahaha..can't stop laughing la..eat d den just walk off lidat..wahh..so syok..haha..I noe y d la..d auntie trust him too much d..so din go collect money..haaa..haha..sumore what la..soo much sumore..youth park..can say one of d place we frequent quite alot during d skateboarding craze la..hmmm..when la wanna go rendam again? haha..wonder if ask them go end of this year they mau ar..altho i tink mayb every1 grow up d..dun12 get urself dirty or wet anymore..this time if reli manage to go must push a few ppl into d pool also d..haha..thx to those who pull me inside dat time..damn sad case tat time..i tink got "some ppl" forget bring spare underwear also la..go gurney afterthat wif d shape of superman design on d pants la..hahaha..lae larrr..so siao..use shirt cover cover..@.@..hahahaha..what's funnier den dat ler..hmmm..i wanna join nighthunt this year if got..wanna be chased again..hahaha..chase and hide..miss d andrenalin rush...hopefully buddy buddy join as well lo..if run alone is meaningless..now i understand y kuan thye prefer to hide when he comes back to our sch after form 5..one thg kenot run so fast and dun dare take risky jumps d..and also..no frens ler..he came alone..run wif us not so siao..must run wif same age committee..hmmm..gotta identify the big big size members also lah..sked later kena tackle rugby style by them sure die..end up black green ler..like how chee seng kena by ah kooi..hahaha..tackle on tar road sumore..will surely b injured..grass not so bad..but still got d muddddd...yuckkk..committee so clean unlike d members full wif dirt..kena tackle onto mud..n den drag along the mud due to the momentum..can enjoy some mud ice cream also..blek..haha..den go KH block bathe in underwear wif other muddy commitee(loser ler..got mud means kena teruk teruk d..plus an egg on d head to top it of for ragu i rmbr in one of d year)..bathe in d middle of night and morning ler..worse thg is not d mud though..gotta b d wind and d chill at nite..esp at pfs..its colder at nite in pfs den other places..smtg like d beach like dat..so cold..plus cold water..hahaha...cold therapy..hmm..those were d days i'm not sure if i will ever get to live once more..hopefully tis year i wud b able to get d chance to do it again ler..as a sign of saying goodbye to d good ol' times as future beckons..hmmm..i can't rmbr d last nite i had so much siaoness going on..when was d last time i'm asking myself now..form 5? not reli..form 4 i think..that was d last one i think..means almost 3years d...no wonder i miss it so much..hmm..ponder and ponder..okie d ler..i'm gonna nap d..so much memories..i'm glad i didn't juz study in high sch unlike in college..hmm..but uni will prove to be different again..next year ler..hehe..plan everythg nicely..probably different sort of fun though..clubs and the likes seems to be favoured alot here..but dun tink i'm into dat type wif fun altho once awhile is fun..hmm..ok liao..make it a point..sleep..zzz

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Hoping for better

yawnnn..another sien nite in uni..10pm d..this time no frens wif me..study alone..extra sien..getting hungry..and sleepy also..mayb need drink macchiato again d..tat coffee..scared drink d can't sleep but can't do anythg as well..aihzz..suddenly no inspiration pulak..feel like pushing all d computers off d table and lie on the table and sleep..die la..tonight must finish physics ler..onot take up too much time d..i tink i've wasted enuf time surfing bout d gua..but still no mood..cham d la..aihhh..i wanna sigh a million times..someone lift me up..probably i need another 1hour walk by the river again..calm my soul..hmm..i wish i could return home to my bed for just a night..and c my family for just a few mins also enuf d..but i dunno what will happen when i return back here..will i feel d same? better? or worse?..haihzzz..life must always be so complicated..actually humans are complicated..not life..i condemn humans..including myself for eternity for being so complex..now i reli wish we were all still living on trees and dressed in hide..hunt for food everyday..easier..no difficult ppl to deal with..just difficult animals..much easier den now..yeahla..complain complain..i noe i complain alot..but no other avenue since i'm here..wat2 do..2 more month..i can't seem to find anythg now to power me thru the nite also d..aihh..can wan can wan..i can do it sentence have become so repetitive now..can do it how long? can do it how well? ok..gotta stop doubting d..or else waste my time typing..suppose to spur me up..actually now i'm feeling abit fired up d..cos i feel abit waste of time typinf away here..haha..ok..think i'm just gonna "crawl" to the vending machine n get myself a packet of chips and cont study d..mayb need to wash face also before i start new chapter of mind boggling phasor optics..blink blink..hail the genius of all the pioneers in physics..discover so many thgs..smtm when my mind i clear and i sit back to see what they have achieved..i'm astounded..altho abit understated..like discovering of gravity waves..wth is dat also man..swt..of all thgs discover gravity waves..mayb one day they can find invisible waves also..or better black hole waves or even better alien waves..or in short physics defying waves..wateva it is..got mood d now..haha..mayb d chapter now boring tats y i stopped..okie..get over d boring part quick..gonna tackle harder wan d..d harder ones excite me more actually..others i've read bfr d..just forget d..altho i agree my concept on d ones i've read not good enuf still..i'm still lazy to look deeper cos like abit sien d..smtms its d book fault also..explanation so brief..end up info not reached to readers..i continue to discover so many physics that's not described carefully in form 5 and college to a lesser degree due to the inadequacy of info..dats y students like me just assume..den assumption wrong..ok liao lah..real waste of time..burn 2 hours d..time to study..chips 1st..hehe..mood back..study!

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Finally!!!!!!

Finally..the leech is off my back..after continuous sucking of my blood..i tink i'm almost dry now..i swear and cross my heart that i won't ever step onto a swampy area again..after 3 or more long days of struggle..its finally off..phewww, what a relief..d harassment continued until just now..and i've staved off another blood quencing, red blood cell draining breakfast for the leech..now i can concentrate on my work..I declare i'm officially leech free..won't associate with that sort of ppl again..what a pain and waste of time..selfish as well..hmm..okie..can do work d..tranquility is back...

Nice Sunday yesterday..

Yesterday was amazingly fun and relaxing day other than a hiccup or two..There's so many memorable thgs that I find it hard to put all my thoughts into words right now..too many screaming for my attention to be written down and be remembered in the future..I guess i'll just start in an orderly manner of what happen rather den just pick the moment i like most and write bout it 1st..

so what really happen was i did all the boring stuff in the morning 1st..altho i think nobody is interested in my boring mundane day to day foragings..i find it necessary to appease myself to write it down:p juz...agx bdayecxdhzn...skip this part if u wan...microwaved that big mac i didn't eat last nite for my breakfast..accompanied by a good dose of cold fresh milk..goof around in the net..read online newspapers and enjoy my breakfast..i really enjoy my breakfast esp if i wake up very early to have it..and the breakfast drink must b cold:) i don't know..juz like cold drinks for breakfast..unless i got flu ler..And den oh ya..my 2hsemates again..ask me do thgs again..this time i good mood..so juz do..i hav complains here..but nonit 2 type here lar..taint my page only..not worth mentioning..and den d happy part..yay..haha..n finish wat they ask me to do d i cabut out of d hse lor(veru quickly&efficiently)..cos i surf d net d..found out bout this event they having in the adelaide festival centre..it's a korean dance workshop..1hour only..haha..smtg i can spare since i gotta uni still.so i cycled happily to the festival centre..so nice..no cars cos sunday..the whole road is mine..hehe..i reached quite early bfr they started so i had time to zoom around wif my bike at the parks still..haha..sunny day but cool wind makes up for the strong sunlight..cycled beside the river torrens at d part where they hav a fountain shooting 50 feet into the air..hahahhahaha..its nice lah..cos d tiny water droplets fly onto ur face..nice feeling..like drizzling on a sunny day..then u hav kids and couples all over d park..lying..cuddling..running here n there..nice ler..but i dun like d bright sun..so i went inside and found that they hav this little market inside selling art stuff..quite cun also..guitarist, musicians playing 2 get some donations..d part i like d most is d corn dolly stall..haha..it's smtg of weaving wheat stalks into decorative items..like animals..and plenty of shapes like stars and the chirstmas..what do u call dat..the round thg they hang on the door..forgot d..yea..and lots more ler..d whole stall is very nice smelling cos they use lots of flowers to decorate also..i noe from wat i describe sounds girlish ler..but trust me they are not that girlish..afterall the art itself originates from ranchers and cowboys themselves..haha..as presents of cos to sweet young maidens in the olden times..so..Yes..it intrigues me..actually i think i visited the stall like 3/4 times like dat..haha..but din buy anythg..other stuff dat i like is d face sketches those artist draw for u..at that moment i was there i saw this man..i tink looks like japanese..he was drawing elvis presley pic..quite nice..so i stood there for 15mins la..watching him draw..hoping i could learn smtg..not bad actually..the smudging technique he does..but i think i sure dunno how2 do wan..c they do so easy only..but when comes to doing it den will find it difficult i tink..and den got other cool stuff also ler..like another artist who draws fantasy themed drawings..like it very much..got one picture..dragon breathing fire..so colourful and real tat i am actually crazy enuf to go check d price..of cos nonit to say d la..kenot afford it..onot sumore tink wanna buy smaller version giv as souvenirs to frens..The next thing that happened was suddenly there was this loud commotion at the foyer..so i hurried inside to have a look..the korean dance group is out..they're banging on gongs..drumming on traiditional drums and cheering the atmosphere up ler..its quite nice..actually i was hoping for smtg bigger ler..mana tau the dance troupe is just around 10members only..but at least their showing doesn't seem so "known" to me..this one looks different..i was abit wary of some dance troupe claiming themselves doing korean or whatever sophisticated dance but turn out to be nth specials also..this one is luckily different..din waste my trip..hehe..so we proceeded to follow to troupe into a large room..where they welcomed everyone and gave us a thorough musical performance 1st..there were plenty of instruments being used..all also like tak pernah c bfr wan..so i just sat on d floor and den they started "rocking" away lah..it was good..hahaha..dunno how2 explain..a totally different repertoire tek tiok liao lah..n d whole cast is all female[=)..this one must highlight] except the lead "show-man" or i dunno wat u call him la..he just seems 2 look like d leader..the girls hit the big drums..play the blow the thg wan ar..i dunno lar..haha..my musical knowledge is not even next to nil..overall the music is nice lah..n they are very sporting also..usually girls tend to play the more boring types of musical instrument..and just sit there play:S...this one skip and hop around the people and they are everywhere amongst the crowd..interacting and playing to the tunes..very very very very energetic start..really got the crowd going..and den after the performance..and a big round of applause the lesson starts..quite easy to pick up..started with the easier moves den d harder wan..and den get faster n faster..hahaha..nice lah!! the music really gav my eardrums a work out lah..gives u d relaxing feel when silence reign right after they pause for a moment..hmmm..but what i like is not just the girls la..the spirit also..always smiling and sooo happy..haha..so energetic..right after the individual dance lesson we danced in one big group..hold hands in huge circle..and den we started running in circles and changing directions plus run to the middle of the circle shouting..hahaha..and den another dance routine i like is when everyone move around fluidly in the shape of like a curling dragon..yeah..and den one of the performers ask one lady to stand in the centre of d circle and not move..while d rest of the broken circle of people continue to curl and curl and finally one by one like swiss rolls everyone is rolled into one huge spiral lah..hahahaha..the centre most person kena squeeze the most one..i was only 5th from the lady which is not moving..so u can imagine lah kena squash how much..hahaha..the kids also seems to b having a fun time..and den we even played this game which is smtg like "human tarik tali" haha.of cos..u pull ppl..not pull the tali..and den more dances and finally to end the thg..they play their music again..very full of energy..really reinvigorates me..and den while they play the music..they cheered us on to come around and dance together..haha..daddys dance with little daughters..mummies wif their sons and den one ang mor lady dancing next to me wan in the group dance invite me dance along lah..haha..so i just held her hand and dance and skip and hop around la..haha..i dunno how 2 dance but i noe how 2 move to the music good enuf lah..haha..i tink that lady like feel very energised by the music too cos apparently i also feel tired d but she still hopping and bouncing here and there merrily to the beats of the music..haha..and den when it finally ended..was..smiles on everyones face..very successful indeed..hehe..yay!!! worthy trip..i actually went alone to this workshop cos i couldn't find anyone who's interested in going wif me ler..i noe some of my frens wud squirm at the thought of going dance workshop..esp some guys la..girls different case of cos..ask my game crazy ex hsemate go wif me..i tink he'd rather stay at home play games and munch on his cookies gua..haha..but nvm lah..i enjoyed it in the company of some friendly strangers i met..haha..so i left to get some drinks..dance til chui tar..and den on my way out i met the lady dance wif me wan..bade her good bye n den met d dance troupe exiting also..den d lead perfomer ar..d guy..he gav me a smile and a wave from afar..abit shocked la..cos i din expect him 2 noe who i am also..hahaha..which explains y this workshop is so good..ppl u dun noe an hour ago become ur friends in some dance movement..without a word spoken..yeah..i didn't hav any conversation wif anyone..other den shout loudly when they ask us to shout to the sky..haha..

I believe the education in korea is also different ler..cos all d girls playing the instruments all wan look like just finish highsch and in uni age as well..and to be able to enjoy such music..is reli a gift..not many ppl get such chance to express themselves..thats y i think i'm beginning to like uninhibited musical plays rather den those like orchestra type music..all in the uniform..prim n proper..smart looking but dun appeal to me..like not true self..not music from the heart..music from the scores only..blek..hmm.. oh ya..now i rmbr what they call it d..it's called dulsori binari meaning 'heartbeat of the land'..hmm..and den bfr i left i visited the corn dolly stall again..spotted a how to make corn dolly book writtrn by the stall owner himself..haha..5dollars only..i wanted to but..but to my dismay..my wallet is empty d..end of the month d mar..pokai d..hav2 go bank withdraw my last 20 if wanna buy..so cycle back lo...i tink the stall owner also noe i12 buy but no money by the way he look at how i dig my wallet for all the 5cents hiding in the corners of my wallet..haha..aiya..but i'm planning to go to the sunday market sumore..so i thought mayb come back after i go to the sunday market..i asked the old man selling the corn dolly..he says he's here only fot today..so can'y buy other day d.

But no worries..the dulsori music drums and cymbals still rings in my ear..so happy music.cycle to the sunday market..and den while i cycle..i pass by another park..den suddenly smtg caught my eye..was lots of pigeons flocking over smtg..it was a man..my goodness..hahahha..lawak lah..d man sitting on the grass with pigeons all over him..his shoulder..his arms his legs his head..hahaha..his bicycle was beside him sumore..lawak la..i laugh so loudly he looked at me and smiled..so i gav him thumbs up lah..hahaha..he also thumbs up back..hahaha..aihhhh..lawak lahhh..i'm having thoughts of trying it also d one day..but must be adelaide pigeons not penang pigeons..penang wan so dirty..go back home must bathe in dettol d la..got bird flu risk sumore..swt....haha..nice la..i tink i tried once for the pigeon to stand on my arm when i was 7yrs old at tra-fa-gal square ar..(i'm sure the spelling is wrong but sounds like dat..sumwhere in england ler) but too damn kecut when d pigeons come near me when feed them..haha..must rmbr la..last time small d pigeons looks so big..of cos scared la..later d pigeon wrestle me to the floor..haiya..haha..but nvm ler..i wanna try now..a flock of them..not one anymore..mayb must wear helmet..scared they patuk my head lah..

hmm..and den so i proceeded to the market..park my bicycle there and den i discover smtg new..can rent bicycles for free at d market for 2hours..to cycle anywhere of cos..haha..not bad..but din go check out..dunno got any catch onot..n den walk and hav a look around lo..quite alot of work of art..interesting thgs..sell many thgs from fighting fishes to "pimp-my-sandals" shops..haha..nice..but waste of money..n den d funniest part has to be this shop selling wooden boxes for letterboxes, keyholders and all d wooden stuff..d funny part was when i read what was inscribed on the wood ler..some of cos sings praises of love, mum..friends and the sort la..but got some is humour one..there's one to be placed in the toilet wan..it goes smtg like this:

WANTED!
A clean toilet.

Our aim: To keep the toilet clean
Your aim will help

one more to put in office cubicle wan..smtg like this:

Don't worry, you won't be sacked,
Slaves are sold.

hahahhaa, funny lar..sumore what arrr
oh ya..

picture of a shit truck carrying sewage wan lah..haha..den written down there..

same shit, different everyday..
got a few more..but can't rmbr d..haha..but interesting and funny lah..sot sot wan..den go walk around lu..go testing the body butter..yuck..as i said i dun like apply sticky creamy thgs on my skin n expose it to the surrounding air..but i just test d smell only..some actually smells quite nice..wat else ar..no more d gua..other den lots of ppl dining under d sun..good place to come wif frens..altho expensive place of cos..den i cycled back to the corn dolly stall..with some money..got the book and a corn dolly..called boy dolly..its a ring in the shape of the breast cancer ribbon ppl normally pin on their shirts wan..or was it aids? forgot d ler..haha..just that u noe shape la..haha..yeah..but it's used to decorate horses during harvest time wan..pretty nice..dunno whether wanna giv ppl or keep for myself yet..mayb giv away after i learn how to make d same wan..i wanna fold animals la..nicer..fold a dumb rabbit come out..haha..besides that i also interviewed d old man selling wan la..he seems to be quite happy that i'm interested to know where he learn his trade from..den he say england..wahh..correct also ler..they hav lots of horses there in olden times..usually harvest time only they fold corn dollies..after paying cycle back to uni lo..need to get some work done d..had enuf fun time d..haha..handed in my design graphics work and materials..woohooo..2work done..left 2more to go..shud b sap sap d remaining wan..met a coursemate there..dun noe him so well ler..he was asking me 2 help wif his design graphics..says he's beeen doing it since morning..sadly din get any sympathy from me cos i did longer den him d..spend whole day doing..last sem..programming even worse..24hrs din sleep lok at the program do..wanna ki siao also kenot ki siao d cos too dazed to ki siao:p..however he did sound desperately in need of help..so help him loh..got him out of trouble d den do my work..finally..finally can do my own work..dun reli noe this guy also wan..scared become another leech only ler..all homework also ask me rather den try 2 do 1st..hmm..but smtm reli busy ok lah..copy once awhile..understandable..just dun1a leechy fren..den later as he opens up himself more..den only i understand y he dread 2do d project so much..he says he works 20hours a week also..i wanna pengsan la..i tink he's doing mechanical..but same number of hours wif me..n work 20hours sumore..hmm..damn tiring..i tink for me to do that..i need a better place d..and one closer to uni..like he does now..living in adelaide tower..high class place lo..but very near to uni..so travel dun take up so much energy like me..cycle to uni like drag a bullock cart to uni everyday wif all d books...but still its an extremely hectic life..considering me myself also so much 2 do d..d place must also b not too big la..or else wanna clean hse, study 5 subjs and work sumore..extremely taxing...swt..tink mayb next year i'll b smtg like him d..:S..but he's been here for 3years already..thgs get easier once u noe where everythg is and how2 get wat u want..not sure if he got his family wif him here..if got mayb not so imposibble after all..got mum to clean up after u..hmm..but hats off to his exshaution..at least not a leech lah as i fear for..just some good guy deserving of a break..

hmm..yeah..by the time finish work its dark already..cycle back home..had dinner and escape to my room..on music loud loud so can't hear wats happening outside..on msn..wait for dad to come online while reading..n doze of on my bed wth bathing..too tired d..run here n there today..woke up at 6am? and typing away now while munching on granola bars..another cloudy nice day..no bright sun..hmm..nice weather to sleep lah..die la..feel so lazy d after breakfast..wanna snuggle under the comforter warmly..perhaps some cold air will wake me up ler..just wake up sleepy again d..i bet if read physics on bed now sure sleep wan..n yes..my fren still pestering him..thank God i slept thru last nite la..din hear miscalls..today dunno how wanna avoid d..run out of ideas..this one reli leech to the max wan..got work only come find u..haihz..mou yee hei fren..miss my buddy frens back home..my kaki bolas frens and lame jokes frens and hawker food frens and midnite 21-dot and chor tai dee frens and bbq and steamboat frens and go cinema and lepak at malls frens..and try new thgs frens..hahahahaha..aizzz........my room..my bed..the river view from my room..the lonely walk/rides along the river banks on rainy days(actually got alot of lightning activity in my place but so far still alive)..the cow dung i always step on when i walk the paths..the usual visit to the sundry shop to buy junk food to watch pirated dvd at home...haha..aiyah..i silly 'projects' i have at home..chopping down trees..repair this an dat..and play games til kena nag by dad..my daily trips to the jalan tengah hawker centre for lunch when mom's not cooking lunch..d wan tan mee stall which makes the best wan tan mee in whole of penang..and d second best wan tan mee is at the pulau tikus tan mark shop near the balai polis there wan..sumore wat i miss ar..yea..the sau hor fun in jln tengah also..so popular smtm u c almost all the tables ppl eating sau hor fun wan..haha..n den mee goreng..and den telok bayan char koay teow..and butterworth's duck egg char koay teow..near my aunt place..spicy and so "phang" lah..can eat 2 plates cos so nice..den d koay teow t'ng near the sg. nibong flyover..and d ikan panggang..wahhh..satay..tsk tsk..sad la..sumore got my favourite durian..i like d wan yellowest wan..dun like d light yellow one or d a slight tinge of red ones..rambutans..wahhhh..i dun miss banana though..dun like banana..nvr eat one also since d last once i rmbr eating after mum force..sumore what la..yeahh..i miss my aquarium..dunno what happen to d fishes d..tink all die d.if hope on my lil sis to clean it..she too lazy to clean lah..apparently my terrapin grow thrice its size since i left also die d..dunnoy die also..miss me too much izit..cehh..i dun feed also wan..haha..tat wan is just fed my lil sis cos still small n cute that time..so she feed..she only feed d cute ones la in short..fishes d same..den when big n not so cute d let me feed..tink now got new wan d at home..must buy more ler..onot dat terrapin so lonely stay in d pot..tink takda gf when i buy it tats y die..die cos miss d gf..hahahaha..so much i miss la..hmm..nvm lah..i got time to type down..later still hav time 2 do work..assuming my hsemate dun kacau my good mood ask me do thgs again..haha..choi..won't la won't la..better dun simply tink..later reli happen..and den what else la i miss..i miss tv lor..altho i admit if dun watch tv can get more thgs done..haha..i miss my every weekday evening chinese show..d drama all dat..hav dinner and watch tv...also miss family dinner..fight wif my lil sis over d nicest dish..hahaha..i noe la..sure lose wan..just sengaja kacau her only..haha..hav my daily soup..evryday must hav soup one..cos i love drinking soup..all types of soup..every meal if eat at home will hav at least 2bowls of soup..if eat outside usually one bowl not enuf wan ler..but always evryday seem2 b satisfied wif one bowl..not being wanna b odd one out i just drink one only gua..but okie la..except if d rice is xtremely dry..oh..d soup i miss..soooo many..the carrot and potato wan, d egg and pork wan..d chup chai wan..d pickled chai wan..got abit of spicy flavour to it wan...d tauhu soup wan..all d soups lor..as long as its soup.i'll drink d..sumore miss keropok lekor..and the loh bak..and d fish to fu at supertanker..emm..yum yum..soo many drinks..the sunshine square coconut drink..almost everytime go there sure drink one..sumore..har! the char mee hoon at sunshine square wan..wahh..char wif bak eww wan..wahhh..so delicious and cheap..and bo bo cha cha and ang tau..d ang tau so nice..not like d one i cook..hahahaha..d tau fu fa near my gdma's place..can add d black thg what's it called d ar?..errmm..d one u mix wif soya wan..wahh..after college on a hot day owez drink dat..n den sumore got d leng chi kang stall at butterworth..also so cheap..d laksa..i like d one near usm..altho so far din reli taste dat nice laksa in penang yet..other den one in kedah..sold by some thai owner..dat one reli stingingly spicy..nice...my gdma's hokkien mee...d morning loh mee at sunshine market..d curry mee at supertanker..d teochew fishball stall near queensbay..wahh..hahaha..miss d fishballs and yam rice la..d vegetarian shops..got so many dishes..i used to pile all d dish till very high n just eat d dish..hahaha..ohh ya..bak chang also..my grandma "tee chang"...ice kacang..best wan definitely not around my place wan..mayb air itam ler..cendol.penang road..tai tong dim sum..yum yum..i like d desert at d end..but basically i like all i think..hahaha..oh yea..i must rmbr when go back must recommend new type of tea to my family..dunno in mandarin call what d..tried it here..must make a note here d..so i rmbr..(!!!!!!!!!!!) hopefully i rmbr la..sumore what ar..oh ya..all d jeruks..watermelon..din eat watermelon for ages d..so expensive here..everytime come supermarket here i try not to look at the juicy red watermelon lah..but usually fail1..den got yay!!! my grandma's chinese new year "geng geng" drink..haha..actually i like wan..but dunno y every1 else dun drink alot..so i will help them finish it for them when gdma force my cousins to drink..hmm..ohh..i do miss firecrackers..i miss d dangerous side of it..not just d fun part of watching d pretty lights..haha..play wif my daredevil cousin..light firecrackers in ur hand n throw it far far away..but i tink now i not so stupid to do such a thg anymore ler..haha..wahh..this cny must go source for illegal stock from him d..haha..dunno where he get his sources lah..at home still got 10 foot long firecracker hide in cupboard din light yet..hahaha...syok nya..this coming tikus year must light d..my cousin is top resource man ler...anythg u want..from cheap hps to pirated cds to games to firecrackers find him...haha..my dad also buy firecrackers for my lil sis from him..c la..so good business..haha..think i've written extremely long up to now..but tinking of what i miss makes me feel good eh..haha..so i wanna cont..what else ar..oh ya..i miss driving also..hope go back d still rmbr how 2 drive lah..wonder whether there'll b any jitters after so long din drive..dunno how's d car now also..must b dirty d..nobody wash d old car one..like my sis..if she drives d car..dun count on her to wash it ler..her record during college was only wash once since start college until result come out..haha..keng leh..tis is wat i always perli her about lah last time..hhmm..lots of stuff din say yet..ohh..i noe wat i miss sumore..the soft fake satin blanket i hav ar..its almost like real wan ler..n its nice..hehe..had it for dunno how many many years d..hmmm...sumore miss cutting d grass for my mum..oh..n also my failed attempt to create artificial pond for the backyard..i tink when i return home i wanna rear guppies again..breed them n mayb launch another "create the pond" project..haha..c if i can solve the problems in creating it last time..last time out i tink the plan was foiled cos i had problems with finding a good big enuf basin for the pond ler..plan is to find one that is cheap enuf..i improvised it ler..use thick plastic bagsto layer d bottom so the water dun seep away..but dat wan is lame idea as i found out.it'll eventually leak..need smtg better den dat..if anyone got any great eureka moments for my silly project tell me ah..haha..will b glad to try it out..d fountain all is sorted out..can get a water pump easily...den rear fishes and plant some lotus inside..problem is when i leave nobody will take care ler..mayb my mum will ler..probably wanna paint the hse too when go back home..mayb not ler..that will take a few weeks if i do alone..plus all the moving d furniture alone..mati lah..hope on my big sis and lil sis to help me do this..unlikely i tink..sumore do wat pulak..wah..i'm actually planning wat i wanna do when i get back d..hmm...gotta repair dat window of mine when i get back..also..wanna c how big dat ciku tree has grown..hopefully not that terencat anymore lah..altho got plenty of fruits until the grass is always full of ciku fruits until my aunt say so wasteful d ciku drop all over nobody pick up to eat..haha..actually me and my siss all noe y the ciku tree so fruitfull d..not cos all d fertiliser my mum put ler..cos smtm only put wan..its cos that's d burial site of all our fishes la..hahaha...haha..and terrapins..always die wan mah if rear sensitive fishes..tink got dunno how many fish d we bury there..hahaha..both my sis and me..and den when smaller i rmbr la..sister 1 n me always bury d den we stick joss sticks there for the dead fishys too..hahaha..see we are so good to them..and den d tradition passed on to my lil sis d..of cos now die d i also dun care d..haha..just buy new ones..but she'll dig lo..she's d grave digger now..den she cucuk 2 joss sticks for the fish..hahaha..so that's y ar...d ciku tree got somany fruits..got so much nutrient leh..hahaha..i like eating ciku wan..but from dat tree i abit sked wanna eat la..hahaha..nutrient from my dead fish leh..but smtm i stil eat..so nex time probably i'll giv d sweet cikus to my frens..if got too many d..hahahahaha...and den aiyah..10am d..kap siao here so much d..time to do some work d lah...oh ya..dun bother to check my blog that often d..cos hols ends tomorrow..so won't have that much free time to waste d gua..but if bored will still type ler..okie..2nd half of sem begins..time to march on to victory=D and home...

Friday, September 28, 2007

Can't concentrate..

Third posts..proves how bored i am..probably distracted..almost 3pm d..still can't get past optics lecture 1 notes..@.@... someone end my misery..hmmmmmmmmmmmm...i've got distracted thx to a college friend of mine..who hav succeeded in posting a record 23 calls on my hp since last morning..and i know y he calls so many times which explains y i dread to pick up that call..is there such a thg a friend harassent ar? cos i seriously tink this is impinging on my rights d..now, suddenly right in front of me a group of 6 just congregated right in front of me...the whole suite is empty..dunno y hav2 sit so near..so noise how 2 study..blekzz..thx alot..i'm thinking of moving to d next empty suite..haih..nvm la..back to what i was saying earlier..yeah..23 calls and one long list of msn messages..asking where did i go what did i do..why i didn't pick up his calls..worse den my mum..at least my mum i dun dread to pick up d phone n tell the truth..well, finally pick up his call..i don't wanna b pestered 24/7 lah..c la c la..haihzz..if he keep doing this to me i tink i'm going to go into hiding d..worse of all is he calls all the time just to ask bout hw lah..which is sickening..if u get wat u mean..so yes..he disturb my good aura of feel goodness d..now i'm gaining it back wif good music blasting into my ears and a mind focused to do the job..ok dokie..so start running..

Early morning restlessness

It's 7.30am now..the sun is out..but the weather is sort of gloomy..it's good..cuz it means its a wet day:) arghh..last nite coke is still on d table and it has seeped onto the table..it sort of looks like the black engine oil..the black colour..hmm..disgusting..but i still like drinking it...haiiiiiiiiiiii..wake up so early..lazy do anythg..feel like going to uni now..but haven't bathe and had breakfast yet..no energy d..no breakfast..so hungry now..hope later the wind helps me abit when i cycle ler..instead of hinder me..when the wind is blowing against u it reli sucks..cos i've gotta pedal thrice as hard and only go the same distance like a normal windless day(cos gotta cycle zig zag so dun meet head on wif d wind)...horrible wind..waste my energy only..sumore if the wind is so strong..the bike can't move fast enuf..n i hav2 twist n turn the head of the steering..left n right just to balance the bike..which is kinda dangerous consideting got cars going past me so close and so fast by. riding bicycles on the road is sort of dangerous here compared to msia..definitely for sure..must wear helmet..n bla bla all d safety thgs..but i rmbr got once..smtg reli scary happened..I was riding back from north of the city..and then there is this car parked by the side of the road..black posh looking one..while i was approaching the car ler..was increasing my speed d..and den suddenly someone open d car door...and its not just open abit..it's like open wif one full swing like dat..wahhh..crap man! that was really killing..i brake so hard..i tink my bicycle skidded..i tink i almost shouted FUC*KK too!!! But of cos la..wide eyed and so shocked, i just like trudge over d side of d road la..den i turn
back to see the person who opened the door was a woman..the type like paris hilton wan la..no brains..and den d driver just sped off..I can't help but not to think bout what might have happened la if i reli did crash into that door and there's a car zooming past me on the other side...crap man..i tink i would have been reduced into some tomato paste on the road lah..which is why nowadays i got some phobia riding close to cars parked on the shoulder of the road..but still..smtm its so unexpected even if ur riding very slowly..Oh ya, if forgot to add..the car windows were also heavily tinted la..so i got no idea if anyone was inside..really recipe for disaster:
1. wind
2. brainless ppl
3. tinted car windows
4. real bad luck

= tomato paste on da road

I hope ppl will hav more common sense la next time to look bfr they open their car door..

hmm, feel like typing sumore..but gotta go get some food d..so hungry..hav to complete my design graphics work..designing with computers..i'm reli not that pro in it ler..gotta ask fren help d 2day..i reckon i'll go to uni early today..REASON: Don't wanna c those two person living opposite my room...nvm la..i must constantly remind myself that it's only 1.5 months left..so tat i don't explode at them next time they take advantage of me..like how they ask me to scrub the mould in the toilet for 3hours(now i noe moulds r reli hard to clean and a real pain in the arse to get off..like these 2 non-humans...when i realise they dun scrub it for 1year already..bugger..make use of me to do the donkey jobs..nvm nvm..b patient b patient as mummy says........:p

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Welcome welcome...

Hooray, my 1st blog page is finally up and running...but no expectations on this blog please..nth melodramatic is going to happen here..it's just all about my plain life..so no expectations please:) that's my only expectation..Generally, i'm abit lazy to update blogs too..i just write when i need to..Since coming to adelaide, it's been difficult to confide in friends thousand of miles away where home is..it really is, which makes me treasure them even more..not to say that friends i hav here is not good enough..it just ain't d same. Well, which is why this blog is created - to exercise my birthright to complain and rant all i want about missing friends and etc..well, not just limited to that, probably to relfect on life..i think life's not all that negative when i choose to see it that way..OK, done with the introduction...After this line, it will all be "bahasa rojak" where grammar is non existent and understanding of readers is not a priority=) thank you.















Well well, where am i gonna start with..alright, there's one..Today,

It's a boring day to say the least..well not the most boring but boring enough...Woke up to the sound of my hsemates-cum-landlord car revving..mitsubishi lancer..they spend d time polishing the car more den cleaning the hse..which is why onus is on me to clean the hse..which annoys me alot since it's suppose to be done together..first, i beared with it for 2weeks..after that i got fed up with the attitude and just couldn't be bothered anymore..It's extremely difficult living wif hsemate-cum-landlord people..u get taken advantage of and you can't protest..because rmbr..ur not standing on equal footing here..he's the landlord and ur d hsemates..there's nth whatsoever in that damn contract which states that they hav 2 clean d hse once a week or anything on their part of responsibility. Frusfrating..yes..confront them..not a good idea considering i'll be staying here for another 1.5 months..which i am indeed very glad to declare..well, 1.5 months more..it won't be long i'm sure..but being stuck here really leaves me with no choice..The idea of staying here for the next year is also out of the window..i can go on detailing about my "hsemates" but i think i'll leave it at that..they are not so nice people and also very "metrosexual guys" whose attitude is so repugnant, i dare say i haven't met one worse then this one(probably, but they are among the worse okay) ..a little hint about them is they hav around 40pairs of shoes between both of them..and i was informed by one of them on those not so good days to rmbr to buy toilet rolls which are of "high quality" cos the cheaper ones apparently feel like sandpaper on the arse..Those pampered babies..*sigh*..laughable even..They should consider asking their moms to wipe their bottoms for them then..(Wow, I've just read it again..it does sound abit harsh..but don't count on me to delete it) Well, this is just the tip of the iceberg mind you..

Right after the those 2 dumb and dumberer left for work..(yeah, they r old..but still so aihhh..speechless) i woke up and head to the city for breakfast..
Nice day actually..cos it rained these few days and it sort of dampens d air..its better den dry air which actually cracks the skin..esp the region near my nails lah..and its quite painful..cos its gaping smtm..well, i'm not a fan of moisturisers..i hate d feeling of cream or anythg on my skin..i dunno y but it's just is..well, had breakfast..very full..den cycled to uni to complete my assignments for the coming week when hols ends..swt..and then there goes the start of another round of studying..mugging..late nites..coffee..quiet computing suite..and nodding head..oh ya..probably will hav my friend Ray teman me mug also in uni till late nite as we hav done in the 1st sem..well, that week was horrible..we both stayed up in the computing suite revising away and battling exshaution..it's all worth it at the end though..cos we actually suvived unscathed from the finals..but he failed his statics exam..and had to take supps..which i actually feel kinda sad also cos study together shud pass together also lah..haihzz..blame it all on that punk lecturer la owez draw imaginary diagrams with his fingers in the air instead of using the chalk for goodness sake..bcos of that i neva understand whatever he says other den " hands up..those who don't understand?"..crap lecturer..sumore always hitting on girls as eric always say..I think 90% of d class was struggling to stay awake anyway..

Right after breakfast, bumped into a few friends..den go uni..nth much really..studied wif frens..n den had dinner with ray..had fun time laughing our heads of..when we think how sad case we are lah..cos apparently both of us are broke lah..i just had $40 in my bank account left and den he had $8 left..hahaha...sad la..but $8 in bank more sad cos cannot go atm withdraw d money to eat dinner sumore..haha..the atm dun dispense less den $20 notes..so go for dinner lo..on me..i must say that it is a very luxurious dinner..eh..40bucks oso can eat luxurious mind you..haha..the smell of the perfectly done chicken..the crispy crunchy taste...wif lavish tomato puree with spices on top..the flowing potato gravy dripping and flowing around gleefully, the bubbling and aromatic smell of that drink..decorated so tastefully to perfection..ahhh..welcome to KFC...@.@ no choice lar..cheaper and i know the person who works at the kfc counter (sorry,top secret kenot reveal my sources)..so if i buy 5pieces of chicken can get 1 free mah..secretly of cos:p hahaha..den while we eating dinner another funny thg happen lo..mayb weird la..there is this big sized, well dressed ang mor sit next to us la..eating away..den suddenly got one kid..not more den 10 year old boy came to his table lah..and den he started talking to d man..dunno how he started talking..he bla bla..i just heard he said.."ohhh, we were up in the train..but the train crashed and we were hanging from the bridge..and my grandma was forced to jump..and and i didn't want to..i cling to the train..but it has falling..falling..
And den i gav my fren that look lah..haha..but surprisingly..tat boy english is kinda good..better den most ppl i heard of..like there's smtg bout this boy that tells me he's special..(i don't mean the disabled kids type)..just kinda weirdly special lah..n den this kiddo..kinda scrawny went to the chair behind me and sat there looking down after breaking of from his story telling..me n my fren..haha..puzzled..and dat ang mor..hahaha..even more blur..dunno wat juz happened..he so scared quickly eat den cabut liao..hahaha..i also wonder where is this kid parents..or does he have any, he didn't seem to be buying anythg either..hmm..another weird encounter..haha..yeah..dunno y in adelaide u meet lots of weird ppl..smtm u wonder r u the only one normal here..

I rmbr there was once..early the year..i met this old lady waiting for d bus wif me...and den she started talking to me about her life..her children..bla bla..wahhh..i was like abit shocked ler..all of a sudden..just started wif.."you know..i had 4 kids..."...kinda sweat lah..i also dunno wat2 say..but my experiences still kenot match my fren's one..his one more ho liao..he was waiting for d traffic lights for d pedestrians to turn green..den suddenly this old lady..presumably in her pyjamas decided to start telling him her whole life story..kinda scary altho pity them also..cos i tink they r just lonely wanting ppl to talk 2 them..hmm, same case la..i guess u can co-relate with their situation when ur so far away from home and inevitably will feel lonely alot..same wif these ppl..lonely..so can understand them ler..instead of giving them those weird harsh stares or discarding them as old people bitter about their own life..or lunatics ler..hmm..hope they find someone they can talk 2 ler..altho me myself is less den willing to respond to their stories..i just sit there stoned..as usual...hmm..

ok liao lah..tink my fingers also tired d typing..hmm..think i've laid enough encounters and thoughts for the day d..altho started d blog wif soo many complains..glad it turn out to be much more positive in the end ler..thanks to the weird boy and some lonely old ladies...alrite..until the next reason to write comes..i'll be off hiding again..shhh..dun wake me up..zzz.....